Its been 13 years since I joined the team at the age of 9. I still remember that when I was a kid, people around me were very obedient and hardworking. I really listened to the adults around me, and I still worked hard for what I didnt like to do. I just wanted to hear more watches Praise the words, at the same time, Im afraid that if I dont do a good job, it will disappoint people who like me and have expectations for me
I remember that I was not a smart kid at that time, and I was not very savvy in skating. I was often scolded and criticized by coaches who hated iron and steel. I was also very ashamed of myself for such a poor understanding [grievance], which led to some timidity, shyness and lack of confidence in my character when I was a child
When I joined the team, as a kid from Beijing Club, I couldnt keep up with my elder brothers and sisters from the Northeast sports school. It was a very hard adaptation process for me who didnt receive professional training [, every days training was also gritting my teeth and sticking to [sadness], trying to catch up with everyones footsteps every moment
In this way, day after day, year after year, when we entered the youth team of China, we came to Harbin, the origin of ice and snow sports, which really started the arduous career of athletes
It was a snowy day when I arrived. I dont know if it was because of the miss of leaving home when I was young or because I had to face the uneasiness of the new environment. Just after I got off the train, I was frozen and cried by the icy air. Like yesterday, although I had a hard time in all aspects of the years under teacher Luans training, I did play for the future as a double skater under such practice On a solid foundation, I have also met a group of friends who can understand each other and share weal and woe [HA HA] and become more outgoing. With the increase of the competition, I have gradually broadened my vision and opened the door to the world.
Time flies, accumulated several years of competition experience, smoothly from the youth group into adulthood, I returned to my hometown Beijing. As a member of the national team, the capital gymnasium began to receive more professional and scientific training, as well as better resources and equipment, medical security and so on. But around, I found that a lot of my friends in the past were gone, and those powerful big brothers and sisters were gone. Unconsciously, the heavy task of picking up the beam fell on us who had just risen from the national youth team. Thinking of the heavy task on our shoulders and the strict management and constraint environment here, I felt that there was invisible pressure in the air and people could not breathe.
As I grew older and grew up in this small circle, I also gradually saw some dark parts hidden under the bright appearance, and also knew that the shadow accompanying the light, whether good or bad, was doomed to be inseparable, for which I gradually sprouted my own thoughts and opinions After all, Im no longer the innocent little girl I used to be
During this period, I think a lot. Today, I look back on the past. I didnt regret that time. No matter what the result is, I tried my best to do the whole process. Although some of the lost things have gone forever, but at the same time I have gained a lot of wealth in life and accumulated a lot of valuable experience.
I never thought about blaming others or revenge for my own troubles. Ive already let go of the past, after all, there is a future waiting for me to explore. However, there are a lot of difficulties in front of me. Its funny that I used to compete for my country as a member of the national team for many times, standing on the world stage for many times, becoming the existence of peoples vision and praise, attracting peoples attention. Now Im throwing away the glory of the past. However, the most real me is confused about the future that cant be controlled by my own strength. Im really drunk
I cant help it. No matter how upset I am, its not the problem I can deal with at present. So its better to think about everything. Life doesnt have to usher in an accident or a surprise one day
When people cant control the seven emotions and six desires, they often make a lot of strange actions, but there must be a truth behind it. Different ideas and views may make us unable to understand each other. When one day a sudden catastrophe comes, we must not be able to stay out of it, but we must not be motivated, give ourselves a time to vent and calm ourselves, and then make a decision. For the irretrievable things that have happened, its better to devote this energy to doing what you like or creating something more meaningful and valuable than to grieving over the past.
Its hard to predict peoples minds. Whats important is not to speculate about others, but to see yourself first, and learn to understand and accept that life is full of many difficulties, but I believe that peoples value depends on themselves. Although I am still under the management of the system at present, many things cant be decided according to my own will, and what I want to publish is always thought twice before I act [, so no matter what I say or do all the time, I have been full of worries. In fact, I dont know what impact these words will bring, and I dont know whether to speak improperly. But whatever I have done in the past or in the future, I will only follow my heart. Even though this road is bumpy and blocked everywhere, I have never abandoned my faith. Since tomorrow is not the end of the world, today we should be free and easy to live, live their own style, my value I decide! Source: Netease sports editor: Lu Ting_ NS5242
Its difficult to predict peoples minds. Whats important is not to speculate about others, but to see yourself first and learn to understand and accept
Life is full of many difficulties, but I believe that peoples value depends on themselves. Although I am still under the management of the system at present, many things cant be decided according to my own will, and what I want to publish is always thought twice before I act [, so no matter what I say or do all the time, I have been full of worries. In fact, I dont know what impact these words will bring, and I dont know whether to speak improperly. But whatever I have done in the past or in the future, I will only follow my heart. Even though this road is bumpy and blocked everywhere, I have never abandoned my faith.
Since tomorrow is not the end of the world, today we should be free and easy to live, live their own style, my value I decide!